"I'm ignorant, not malicious."
I'm a 26 year old whom is trying to figure myself out. And working to come to terms with those things as I do.
Please bear with me.
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avillanappears:

avillanappears:

avillanappears:

funniest thing about the thing (1982) is that the titular thing is both a master manipulator who can perfectly replicate anyone but also a big bundle of nerves who flips out and starts screaming and turning into 5000 meat parts at once the INSTANT it’s found out

like at one point the thing replicates a guy who has a heart condition, promptly has a heart attack, and then gets so freaked out by the defibrillator it starts biting people

the thing is a master actor who is absolutely awful at improv and the show keeps going wrong

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thebibliosphere:

Remembering a conversation with my therapist where I was complaining that despite seeming to be healthier on paper, I’m constantly exhausted/injured these days, and you’d think things would get better.

My therapist very patiently pointed out, yes, I am injured more often these days. Or dealing with complications from my hEDS. But that’s because I was so sick I spent 5 years in bed. You can’t injure yourself if you’re too sick to move.

Like ah. Yes. Thank you for that reality check. Things aren’t worse. I’m just a chaos gremlin that’s been declared healthy enough to be turned loose.

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theslowesthnery:

unpretty:

roach-works:

roach-works:

jumpingjacktrash:

icebats:

“tumblr is so cozy and nice compared to reddit” okay everyone, i know we are excited to have new people, but lets not pretend this website is without its rich history of frivolous death threats,

i mean true but they’re pretty clumsy and stupid death threats and people generally just giggle at them.

someone on here once told me i should kill myself and when i told them they should come try to kill me themselves they started cryposting that i was threatening violence

this is the dork ass loser website, it’s fine

i mean to specify yes absolutely you will get death threats if you get popular and are a minority or autistic but they’re going to be deeply fucking pathetic.

like. ‘pee your pants’ pathetic. ‘callout post with 90% broken links’ pathetic. ‘kids half your age wondering why you haven’t been cancelled yet’ pathetic. ‘baby gays declaring your sexual orientation was made up for notes’ pathetic. ‘steven universe adults trying to act like your lukewarm opinion on a child’s cartoon is the only thing delaying the second coming’ pathetic. ‘well-meaning midwest middle schoolers who think trans rights involve reblogging a gc2b advertisement and then screaming at 40 year old transsexuals for using the wrong terminology for their own titties’ pathetic.

there are seriously deranged assholes here and they will try to take you down and it will be the weirdest and saddest case of lateral aggression you’re likely to experience on this bitch of an earth.

good luck.

someone got so mad i hadn’t updated my batman fanfic that they threatened to find a hitman on the dark web to stab my loved ones in the tummy

specifically the tummy

haha yeah funny threats haha. i was told by an anon that they hope my child gets raped and has their genitals sliced off, after another user made a fraudulent callout post about me (that had thousands of notes by the time i finally got tumblr to remove it, and they only did because i was able to report the post for reposting my art without permission), claiming that i’m a pedophile and “create CP” because i drew SFW art of a baby minotaur drawing with chalk.

and the shit i’ve seen other people get on this hellsite, shit like “i’m glad you got sexually abused and i hope it happens again because you haven’t learned your lesson”, “i wish your abusers had done worse to you, i wish they’d killed you”, images or real life gore and dead people and animal abuse, slurs and racism and transphobia and homophobia, and explicitly described threats of violence (including sexual) sent to CSA survivors, including minors.

so like. if we’re going to act like all death threats and anon hate sent on this site is “deeply pathetic”, it logically follows that anyone who gets upset by that shit is also deeply pathetic. and i don’t fucking care how silly threats like “tee hee i will find u and stab u in the tummy :3” are, no one should be sent shit like that and they have every right to be upset and uncomfortable over them. not everyone’s able to laugh off death threats, no matter how “deeply pathetic” you think the are, and they shouldn’t have to.

anyway bless OP for their comments in the replies

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brightlotusmoon:

cryoverkiltmilk:

lesbianrecorderplayer:

swagging-back-to:

tiktoksthataregood-ish:

i would… i would do so much… i would do everything and anything for her.

[VD: A tiktok of a buff, blonde woman in a green and cream dress and a white hairband. Text over the screen reads “I forget that I can’t wear cute cottagecore outfits because I’m jacked and I look ridiculous”. The video then cuts to a woman with brown hair and blonde highlights, who has a thick Slavic accent, and she says: “What is more cottagecore than being strong from ploughing fields and moving the tractors? You are beautiful strong woman. You are cottagecore.” /End ID]

Woman…. Big… pretty

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thebibliosphere:

spikewriter:

thebibliosphere:

I’ll get around to updating my writer advice posts soon, hopefully. But I’m just throwing this out there right now in case it saves someone the hassle of uploading their files, but I will no longer be doing business with Ingram Spark going forward.

All future paperbacks will be distributed using draft2digital, which has the exact same market accessibility as Ingram.

They still owe me $200 for the botched hardbacks they sent me which they are adamant are in sellable condition (bitch, they’re covered in glue and pages are falling out!) and their customer service has become truly abysmal. They’re just straight up ignoring customer help emails for weeks at a time unless you pay $50 to talk to a human. Or if you’ve got a viral TikTok following and can drag them for filth.

I’m just done. I’m so done with them being rude and condescending and also the fact that authors can no longer remove their files from publication if we want to. We have to reach out to customer service, and unless you’re paying $25-50 to talk to a person, it can take them weeks to get back to you. I’m over it.

Not to mention I always seem in negative territory. Not much, but just enough to wipe out any gains. Which, since I made my books non-returnable, I’m wondering where some of those negatives come from.

Yup, all print is moving to D2D.

They’ve hiked the cost of printing 3 times over the last year. So it’s possible if you didn’t update to reflect that in all territories, that you might have been getting hit with an exchange rate.

I know I was earning 1 whole penny on my Australian paperbacks for a while.

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ghostlytravelreader:

thebibliosphere:

So, I found a b2 supplement I can take and not react to the fillers (Thorne brand, not sponsored), and after taking it for a month, I’ve noticed it does seem to have an effect on my migraines.

I’m still getting 1-3 migraines a month when my hormones fluctuate, but I have noticed a significant reduction in pain since I started taking the b2. Brain fog is still a nightmare (see Migraine Daddy post 😂), but the pain is more of a normal headache and not dropping me to the floor.

Supposedly you don’t see significant results until you’ve been on a high dose of b2 for about 3-4 months (my neurologist suggested 400mg), but given that I am actually deficient in b2 thanks to my MCAS, fixing the deficiency seems to be helping by itself.

So who knows, maybe in a few months, I’ll see better results.

I know I really need to be taking a methylated B complex at this point, but they all have biotin in them, and any increase in my biotin intake just makes me sick as a dog. I thought at first it was because it was a histamine liberator, but so is methyl folate/folic acid and I’ve been able to tolerate that okay. Idk. Bodies are weird.

TIL MCAS can cause vitamin deficiencies. Wonder why my specialist never mentioned this.

It’s twofold because often our diets are limited, meaning our nutrition intake is also limited, but there’s also some evidence to show it can prevent absorption in the gut because our inability to properly process histamine means food isn’t being fully broken down and utilized. Iron deficiency is usually the most common but so is folate deficiency and pernicious anemia, which is caused by lack of b12. I’ve got the MTHFR gene mutation which seems to be really common in MCAS, so I take everything pre-methylated.

A lot of us need micro-nutrients as well as a hefty dose of vitamin d (necessary for mast cells to remain stable and prevent the development of allergic diseases so if anyone’s been told they’ve got a vitamin D deficiency, take your gd supplements and make sure your kids take them too)

I’ve found that stabilizing my b vitamins, which much like vitamin d, contribute to general mast cell stability, has helped me a lot over the last few years because my body is finally able to repair itself and get out of crisis mode.

I only know all this because I was diagnosed with pernicious anemia first, and I have a dietitian with mast cell dysfunction, so she’s all over this. She’s actually really happy I can take b2 right now because it helps the body with the methylation process too, and we’ve noticed a reduction in my mast cell GI symptoms. It’s minor. But I’ll take all I can get.

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thebibliosphere:

thebibliosphere:

queer-book-character-tournament:

Queer Book Character Tournament 2 Round 3

Murderbot- The Murderbot Diaries

Lady Ursula- Hunger Pangs: True Love Bites

See Results

Character, book, and author names under the cut

Keep reading

I picked Ursula because she’s my book child but hngh

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Screenshotting this for the inevitable moment when we lose but:

Murderbot 🤝 Ursula, holding hands like two bad bitches should.

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lyonneriley:

monster boyfriends with carved muscles are great, don’t get me wrong. but I want more monster boyfriends with power lifter bodies. i’m talking a few inches of fat on top of their huge, sturdy bellies because they’re so strong they have to eat a whole deer every day just to sustain themselves. your monster boyfriend so focused on being the strongest for you that he needs the extra fat to burn. and it’s the perfect cushion for your ass when he’s pounding you senseless.